So Alone

One evening in late April, I don't exactly remember the date, I had called all of my friends from my telephone directory, one after another. The call center for my SIM card replied either, "The number you have called is currently switched off. Please try again later," or "The number you are trying to call is currently unreachable." I certainly had to wonder what happened. I used to have so many friends that i could trust; but one day they all seemed to vanish from my sight.
I sat in my room, pondering, trying to decide whether I should try to look for them [which would take many days and nights] or simply accept being alone. After all, in the end, the only person we can really trust is us. I really had to wonder about all of them. We had met in March, the previous year and everyone seemed to be happy together. We held parties for one another, discussed our lives and our plans and hopes for the future. I had not thought or expected that, this year, I would be so alone. Sitting in my room, pondering my fate, has surrounded me with heavy walls of silence like a crypt. Maybe I am becoming paranoiac but I really cannot help thinking that, underneath their show of friendship, there lurked the dark desire to isolate me.
Truly, the only person I can really trust is me.